Posts Tagged ‘Asperger Syndrome’


Root Experience & the Hidden Project…


Between Spring 2017 and Summer this year, 2019 I was on and off involved with a Brighton-based community arts and theatre charity organisation, Root Experience on their Hidden Project which culminated in the creation of a graphic novel style book, ‘Hidden Stories’.

I joined a series of workshops with a group of people living with invisible conditions / hidden disabilities.  We explored our experiences through visual art, storytelling and soundscapes – and contributed to a film about participation in the sessions which can be seen on the Root Experience website under Hidden Stories project.


My main contribution was to assemble a multi-sensory visual arts and creative writing installation, under the title of ‘Sensing Red’, based on my challenges with hypersensory sensitivity, from both Asperger’s and fibromyalgia syndrome, and with bipolar disorder. This glaringly visual, variously tactile and noise-making ‘piece’ also included red berry sweets to taste (& eat) plus ‘red hot’ sandalwood and ginger fragrance-infused fabric to smell.  The accompanying booklet ABLED can be seen as a slideshow below, at the end of the post.


In July 2017 the workshop participants and creative partners of Root Experience presented a weekend’s interactive exhibition of our creative contributions – called the Hubbub – in Brighton Dome’s Founders Room gallery space.

The Hubbub asked the question:  “What’s behind your mask?”  There the public could explore, through discussion, writing, film-viewing and object-manipulation, what they comprehended of their own and others’ hidden stories.


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Quite coincidentally, outside the Dome building on New Road, the UK’s first Disability Pride was being held – with stalls, speeches, bands and other creative performances; two events linking the somewhat-known &/or visible and the lesser-known &/or invisible experiences of persons living with different abilities: outside of ‘the norm’.


Root Experience wished to expand on the work and the ideas that emerged from the 8 week course; they put out a bid to win an ITV People’s Projects award to run similar workshops in 10 towns across South East England and from those, and the Brighton sessions, create a book to illustrate – literally – some general and shared experiences – and information – about how it can be to live with hidden conditions.

I assisted with the graphics side of the fundraising bid, including parading with others as A-frame poster-wearers, through Saturday shoppers and cafe-scene quaffers, on a busy Brighton afternoon.  We won our award and a year later the book ‘Hidden Stories’ was launched in the 10 towns’ libraries.

This journey – along with many participants’ personal blog posts and video interviews – can be followed on the web link above.  Root Experience describe their book thus:

“Hidden Stories is a playfully illustrated book about what it’s like to live with an invisible condition like anxiety or autism. Really it’s about all of us, and our everyday struggle to simply be ourselves.”

A digital version of the book can be downloaded for free from the website / via this link.


Slideshow of ABLED :  A-normal  B ooklet  L isting  E nigmatic  D isorders

– exploring my Aspie voice on the light and dark questions of disability versus difference ability…

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OTTP’s #Post-Simplism Movement is Manifest-o!


SSDropSpin+Sddlscmb'18It is with a sense of extreme urgency that I am launching the #neuroDV_art* revolutionary creativist** ‘movement’ #Post-Simplism***…

I do so in honour of the Nobel Peace Prize-awardable heroism shown by Swedish teenager, Greta Thunberg, and all of the international young person students who were striking (from school education) today and in weeks past about the global Climate Crisis.

My own neurodiverse (ND) diagnosis of Asperger Syndrome Condition was not realised until late in my life (age 55); from that I learned of the aspie ‘way’ – of being highly globally concerned, whilst challenged by familial, partners, and other ‘local’ peers social relating – which had been my experience from a very young age.

My neurodiverse mental processing is overwhelmed by news and magazine print and online screens, does not relate well to the disembodied voices on the radio, and so I have not been ‘up-to-date’ with all the negative news, the literal madness being perpetrated in the world.

But learning about the supreme logic and honesty of Greta’s public speaking at TEDx-Stockholm for the URGENT call to action to change our behaviours for the sake of the planet’s sustainable ecology, has inspired me.  (Blue text links in this & above paragraphs go to Greta Thunberg online…)

SSMadMaxMobile'18I also strongly need to express my concerns, by expanding my creative recycling visual artist practice and lifestyle into a ‘movement’ to be shared: a call out to other ND persons who care deeply (and struggle painfully) at the totally illogical way that our societies are functioning and managed.

It is a call to passionate grassroots action and empowerment – through creativity – by, and for, neurodiverse younger and older persons.


* #neuroDV_art –  see OTTPs creativist works and actions on ig from here;

plus see more  #neuroDV_fotoart  posts also  @s.walkr.luc on instagram – from this link…

** creativist = creative activist

*** simplism = a simplification that goes too far (to the point of misrepresentation); an act of excessive simplification; the act of making something seem simpler than it really is

The #Post-Simplism (P-S) Manifesto

A personal and planetary political 13-step Creativist Recovery process and programme

1. Post-Simplism is a movement by and for the highly intelligent and globally-caring neurodiverse persons of planet Earth…

2. Post-Simplism manifestly recognises that the time of simplist views re the planetary and humanity evolution have passed their excusable date…

3. Post-Simplism is a call-to-join an alternative #neuroDV_art creative movement that is eco- and persons-sustainable on all levels…

4. The ‘Simplism’ of P-S honours simplicity and the maxim ‘Live simply that others may simply live’…

5. The ‘Post’ of P-S references the social media age of the blog / vlog / ig / twitter / other posting as valid, non-verbal, ‘alone-friendly’ communication…

6. Post-Simplism embraces any and all forms of recycling of resources: products and philosophies and practicality…

7. Post-Simplism rejects any and all forms of fundamentalism as non-logical and highly-imbalanced…

8. Post-Simplism favours ‘difference ability’ over disabled / abled / non-disabled concepts and rejects conformity to a ‘normal’.  Simplism is a reclaiming of the term ‘simple’ as it has been used derogatively or condescendingly…

9. Post-Simplism reaches out across (& beyond) the globe, amongst the varied categories of Earth citizens, and across the several dimensions of being…

10. Post-Simplists embrace the honesty and integrity that is ‘walking their talk’ re addressing the global / humanity crisis and evolution…

11. Post-Simplists communicate in their neurodiverse (non-neuro-typical) way: at their pace, in their style, with their integrity…

12. Post-Simplists favour gratitude versus greed; creativism versus consumerism; creative recycling mindfulness versus new product retail therapy; they favour – wherever and whenever possible – logical & local eco-revolution: trains v. planes, trolley v. taxi, paper v. plastic, vegetarian v. omnivore, humanism v. religion/dogma, community v. centralisation, local business v. online budget spending, etc…

13. Post-Simplism will commit to updating (&/or rearranging the steps of) the P-S Manifesto with new knowledge, new insight, and with space and time…





Eyes-Down Grounding…




To compensate for being high-person-exhausted from 3 solid weeks of art installations and happenings during Brighton’s Fringe & Festival month, I thought a bit of grounding via ‘curating / collating’ my incidental (not snapaholic) pavement-level Fotography of recent 3 months would be in order to help bring me downward…

Other previous manhole-cover-obsessive images can be (re)viewed at or previewed in my Blurb ebook ‘Utilitarian: A Pavement-Level Perspective’.)

(the definitely-obsessive 21-shot mosaics from said art happenings may follow in future posts…)


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Haiku City on the Go…


Today is day 15 of the 30 days of April’s poem-a-day writing that is happening on Off the Trolley Production’s HaikuCity blog posts: ‎

The theme of today’s haiku is housework – not one of my regular activities… But the ‘challenge’ of creating a haiku-per-day – and adding to that a fone foto or two – has been a spring cleaning for my spirit.


The artwork above was created in March and based around a haiku composed at the beginning of that month.  This untitled piece features water-colouring & collaging of my now-shredded New Internationalist journal diary from 2009.  Having begun my gender transition in 2007, this diary would not offer clues to my hidden transgender nature (as investigated in the Retro Diary Enquiry category of this blog).

Creating art, however, has been a lifelong – and mostly regular – activity that has seen me through the challenges of not knowing/understanding my genderqueer – and bipolar and Aspergic – nature…

More haikus featured on this blog back in February:




TransGenderQueer Space: in homage to…


This post is ‘queer art homage’  –    in the form of a fonecamera fotovideo.

TransPrdBnrJL0214By way of introduction.

The following text is very close to that which I presented (alongside the premiere viewing of the 5-minute-long fotovideo below) at the Trans* History performance event at Brighton&Hove’s Jubilee Library on Saturday, 15th February…

When persons gender transition, it becomes hugely significant to them that they have appropriate spaces to go & facilities to use according to their gender identity.

That means for me that it is really important, for instance, that I can go swimming at a pool where there is a unisex – or gender neutral – changing space.

Luckily I dress pretty much entirely in recycled clothes so I am very familiar with the ‘gender-free’ charity shop fitting room  (as has been homage’d in the mid-90s with a sonnet ‘Ode to the Cubicle’…)

Most significantly, as this is a daily necessity, is for me to be able to find and use gender-neutral toilet space and that means mainly using an accessible toilet. (This is also necessary for other trans persons – especially in the early days of their transition.)

I  feel Aspergically and sensorily more comfortable (and safe) in a solitary and more spacious ‘loo’. I take Aspie pleasure in their architectural features, and in the fixtures and fittings.

The fotovideo is a celebration of the accessible public convenience  as transgenderqueer space.


Finding the Positive+ in Aspie…


… & when personal relations appear to be perpetually going down the pan, then it’s pleasing to come upon some past [proetic] positives for being Aspie…

(+ to ponder the mysteries of the silent ‘p’ in psychic)


Minding Your ‘P’s on Cue

Strolling across the lawns for
a picnic with poetry in the park
I became possessed with minding our ‘p’s on cue.
We searched for a sheltered spot by a stream
(that remind one of other pimply and pissy words)
because the wind was up and I said
‘it’s parky’ when the sun hid behind the clouds.
You called the sky perfect, only you pronounce it perfick.
I got out the flask of peppermint tea,
and cucumber sandwiches – salted but not peppered.
You told me ghost stories, but we didn’t hit on
poltergeist. (And when you said your acupuncturist
had pressed your points to do with fear of people
we didn’t mention paranoia or panic, only agoraphobia.
We were playing this game protectively.)
Then you kissed me on the cheek,
and I said ‘there’s one: pecks’.  You thought
that I meant pectorals and pointed
to your quads!  Later as our cues were down
I gave you a pinch and a punch – like on the
first of the month – but these were on your bicep.
And I asked you if your mother ever called
you a ‘pestilential pumpkin’?  No, you said,
and told me the Hebrew for cow and cows which
began with a ‘p’ but I don’t recall the singular nor plural…
You read the poetry – e e cummings and another one
about the hoi-poloi coming to the opera.
But when you kissed me on the lips
that was the real performance – especially
for the drama students perched on the hill.
Just as well they didn’t know your purple pants
were in my bag as they might perchance have
got even more pop-eyed…
But don’t let me get pernickety;
it really was a peachy afternoon

©  Luc(e) Raesmith  (circa 1995)

thanks Home Skillet for the cucumber sarnies pic:


Aspergic Word Played Out…


Whilst this blog’s ‘retro diary enquiry’ posts may reveal my Andro self, albeit lived subconsciously pre-age-of-40, then my proems writing period (1994-2004) can reveal my also-unrecognised Aspie self…

This summer I was formally diagnosed as being on the Autistic Spectrum with Asperger Syndrome: a fact that is both a blessed relief and a source of further angst-riddled self-consciousness…  It is fortunately now-recognised that Aspies can be more right-brained creatives and not-necessarily the stereotyped maths and science ‘specialists’…

On re-reading my proems (up to 19 years on), I realise the Aspergic word play: the cacophony and dissonance of constant alliterative and assonance banter dancing about my non-neurotypical brain, was channelled into for-performance writing. Currently, however, I appear to be more caught up in a chaotic choreography of over-punctuation and dis-spelling…

I proffer here one of my favourite – and possibly most Aspie – proems: ‘Verisimilitude’.  I can never remember what *’verisimilitude’ actually means; it sounds like ‘very silly mood’ which is appropriate to the content…

[* a definition of this title can be found in Part 2 of the Glossary post under said same blog Category]

This ‘foodie‘ proem was composed in a-total-of-23 minutes from a list of 70 words that I really liked the sound of and which I had spontaneously put-to-paper in 5 minutes.  (I can now only recall **52 of those words – the most obvious sound-wise – and these are alphabetically listed below the poem for my/anyone’s interest…)

[** perhaps not coincidence that 1-of-the-52 is ‘testosterone’: the andropausal medication of choice…]



The seditious plebian matriarch
of the voluminous – nay pulcritudinous – stature
was concocting a jambalaya:
a sublime recipe with a hint of vanilla
(“prevents flatulence” she would yodel onomatopaeically).
She served sassafrass to complement this dish,
and would gesticulate eruditely at her guests,
who dared not be cacophonous
nor proffer claptrap in her presence,
for she had a temper both
maniacal and diabolical,
and globular spittle would emit
from her tubular vocal regions
should any testosterone-imbalanced male
be so obstreporous as to call her cooking

Such was her pernickety nature,
garnered through antiquity and germinating
virginal maidens who had met
with disastrous liaisons to local rascals
who lured them behind iguana bushes –
with tart pomegranates or falafels
in the dusty hectares of that region.

Our matriarch would gather
her rumbunctious crew
in the vestibule, its décor
alluding to zen and cello music,
and offer pontrifract cakes and
invite them to browse through encyclopaedic
tomes on lesser-spotted aardvaarks,
and how to perform an endoscopy,
and the initiation of the hierophants.
In short, as hospitable matron she was incandescent.

©  Luc(e) Raesmith


antiquity      aardvaarks       cacophony      cello       claptrap       concoct      decor      diabolical      disastrous      erudite        encyclopaedic       endoscopy      falafel        flatulence       gesticulate       globular      hectare       hierophant       hospitable       iguana       incandescent      initiation        jambalaya        liaisons        maniacal        matriarch       obstreperous       onomatopoeia        pernickety        plebeian        pomegranate        pontifract      proffer        pulchritudinous      rascal        rambunctious       sassafrass       seditious        spittle        sublime      tart      testosterone       tome        tubular       vanilla       verisimilitude       vestibule       virginal       voluminous       wundebar       yodel      zen

(pomegranate, falafel & vanilla images courtesy of google: artists unknown)